i dont know if ive ever felt this good in my entire life. this is an immense sense of personal well being, and stability. i have become the person that i have always dreamed of becoming.

and the way that it happened, was through the pain of one of my best friends unleashing everything that she had been holding back from saying to me, through all the times of my freakouts and emotional instability. she skinned me alive, but then the skin grew back anew, bright white and shining, ten times thicker.


i think i might need to meditate to keep this sane emotional state, and supercontrol over my emotions...because i dont intend to ever go back to the way i was before. my past mindset still looms over me, but i dont intend to let it take over me again. i now have the strength and the glorious determination to be this new me from now on.

i look forward to a bright and shining future, with a stronger heart in my chest and a steadier head on my shoulders.